真实

真实
张惠妹

你说的话 在我心中生了根
爱得很深 所以心很疼
记忆 在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问 对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉 另外一个人
我等 等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候 比较真

太多疑问 知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开 也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

太多疑问 知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开 也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

Yesterday listen to this song on radio, so back office fast fast download. I can deeply feel the lyric, its meaning mean so strong. Is so true.....

Yeah ---> Totally No

Really can't feel the Chinese New Year in the air. Just want go back home feel warm and enjoy mummy cooking. Last day at PJ, tomorrow morning back Butterworth. Everything just rush rush rush. Part of the reasons for no festival mood maybe due to dear problem. Although it seem to partially solve but....... I'm being paranoid. A friend said before being paranoid can be a good thing. Yes i agree, however, is suffering also. I keep worried of things that not base on me. In the end, i'm the one who over stress. Glad my roommate give me some useful advices, point out the thing i couldn't see or can say miss out. Really, don't aspect me to be perfect, not even half way close.

Delay for over 2 weeks, i finally get my hair cut last night. Maybe some of you will say not much different but i do have cut my front short oo!My stylist say if i wan to change my hairstyle have to let my hair longer oni can. So no choice, wait until my hair longer i will cut my fromt hair even shorter. I wan fresh fresh look.

Cut or Don't Cut

Tonight going to pasar malam buy Chinese New Year stuff for the last time then continue by cutting my hair. Yesterday go Vincci buy a sandle for rm20, i quite like it. Go Sasa buy Canmake eyeliner rm36, sob sob. Though wan go La Senza but broke le, haiz. Pity me.

5 more days can go home already, still thinking wan change hair style or not. Boring with my hair already, thinking want to cut my front hair short. But scare not suitable. I don't want that style look like doll, my housemate suggest me to cut no even one. I ask my stylist see what his suggestion. Don't want to look same all the time.

Feel Warm From The Bottom of My Heart

Dear say "i wan to talk to you about us tonight" yesterday. This give me a creepy when heard this few word. It doesn't seem to be very good. Some more such F**K thing happen yesterday, i got more worried. So i ask him at night before i go to sleep what he want to talk about. My heart beep very fast waiting for his answer.

The moment he talk, i try to calm myself. He say " I'm sorry, lately keep making you mad and sad, hurt you with my words. I won't do it again." I know he try his best to grow up, decrease his selfish attitude and those strong well of controlling. I know he just try to match my steps. I glad he had grown since the beginning. The last sentence he said made me very warm. " i can lose all my money, i can lose my business but i cannot effort to lose you". Even if it is a lie, at least i know i'm value to someone for this very moment. Woman are stupid huh!? Maybe is but clever never seem to bring me anything. So i rather be a invisible woman from behind.

My aim now beside finding a better job after graduate, i try my best to save enough money to buy a house together with him in 2 more year. He already plan for so many, at least this is what i can do since i do best in saving money $$$. Hehehe......

Ridiculous

Yesterday Uncle Bean suddenly call me in the middle of my work, i though is dear dai dai again divert call to my phone again but is not. He say dear at Chow Kit suddenly cut off the call then cannot contact him again. I started call dear but it keep say "tiada dalam perkhidmatan". I start worried. Thinking positive, maybe his hp no battery again as usual. But no; until 6pm suddenly my colleague say someone looking for me and i saw him standing outside look blurry i know something not right. The first word he say is "I'm been robbed". Huh!? I blank for a second and give him my phone to contact his family and stop his Maxis service. Then he go downstair wait for me off duty. OMG...what in the world happen...

When i discuss with him in car what actually happen there, he looked very upsad and helpless. The thing is like this..............

He go Chow Kit to look for distibutor that sell furniture he needed in his new shop. When he reach, the owner walk away for awhile so he plan go to the coffee shop next few block to rest. On the way there, suddenly two Indian guys come out from no where ask him whether or not want prostitut. He reject them and keep walking. They out of sudden grab is both hand and pull him into a dark alley's shop lot and lock the door. He try shout and think of way to escape however they pull out 2 knifes pointed at him. 3 Indian guys & a girl in their, he also don't know what to do. They wan him take out RM50 to do massage, helplessly he take out his wallet and they take all his money leave RM20 for him and gv back his wallet to him. The phone of cause won't survive. Even an external hard disk also they take. Dear try talk to them to give back his hard disk because inside full of things he need to work but as you can imagine it fail. When he been realise, he still haven't back to reality, a bit space out because so impossible & sudden.

Although lose many things but at least thanks God i didn't lose him. He come to me in one piece i already relief. What kind of world nowadays is!? So Ridiculous man!! Is people just do what they want to do, never think of black and white? The world just getting darker and darker......

1 More Week CNY

What the hell!? My LI already in 2nd weeks & 1 more week is Chinese New Year. I feel like many thing haven't done. No new year feel at all.

Today come work in not a very good mood because my friend they late again as always. I really scare this will affect my LI report. Haiz.... And that Dai Dai overslept this morning because go yam cha last night without my knowledge. Hit him er......

Just now dear say wan talk to me tonight about us. We you hear this what will you think about? This give me a very creepy feeling.

Now everyday go home also feel tired, sleep before 12am. OMG!! Living normal live, Me!! Somemore have to run here and there for dear new shop. TIME... i need time.

+ IP Man +

Ip Man, the only chinese movie i watch 2008 in cinema. For my opinion, i dun like to waste movie watching chinese movie because is not worth it. This one is because dear wan to watch and many people recommend it.

Ip Man is adapted from the life story of Ip Man, the grand master of the Wing Chun style of kung fu and sifu (master) of legendary kung fu superstar Bruce Lee. The story of Wing Chun began in the 1920s and 30s, in wartorn China. Ip Man was martial art’s unyielding follower, devoted whole-heartedly to the free learning of wushu. The fight to be top between the Wushu schools in the southern and northern regions of China had not stopped him having goodwill matches with other practitioners. Nationalistic bad feelings and racial hatred had not lessened his respect for Japanese kung fu warriors. In this great era of hatreds and tragedies, Ip focused only on wushu. His enthusiasm for martial arts saw him having devastating straight fights with various elite practitioners.

I'm not a fans of Donnie Yen but i love the way he act in this movie. This is the his first movie i like out of so many. Is not all action and fighting, their really bring out the story behind. Saw many great shooting skill, not like most of the HK movie that have the outside no inside". I also recommend this movie to you all.

*The Spirit*

On Dec i got watch some movies, 1 of them is The Spirit. Part of the reason watch this movie is because wan to see how 300 director shoot a comic style movie.another reason is because Yes Man is full,hehe...


The Spirit is a written and directed by Frank Miller and starring Gabriel Macht , Samuel L. Jackson, Scarlett Johansson and Eve Mendes.

In Central City, rookie cop Denny Colt returns from the dead as the detective known only as the Spirit to fight crime. After he finds his nemesis, the Octopus at the Central City mud flats, the femme fatale Sand Saref discovers two chests in a nearby pond. She tries to flee with both chests, but the Octopus shoots at her, snapping the line that connects the two chests together. After a fight with the Spirit, Octopus takes the remaining chest that Saref left behind and escapes with one of his thugs.The Octopus wants the mystical Blood of Heracles in order to become immortal and Sand Saref wants the treasure of the Argonauts, but both people end up with the wrong chest, Sand with the blood and the Octopus with the treasure of the Argonauts.The Spirit is involved in a love triangle with Sand Saref, who is actually Colt's childhood sweetheart until she'd left the city after her police officer father was shot and killed, and surgeon Ellen Dolan, Commissioner Dolan's daughter.

That is the official plot of the story.Personally i dun like the movie, it let me down. I aspect it to me more of an action movie but it turn out to be a comedy. Way to many of the the actor voice over. I only ca give 5/10 for this movie.

New Year Countdown

I write this because i really feel the starting of my 2009 is SUCK. I hope all the bad luck goes together with that day and bring spring to me the whole year. Why i say suck?? Because........ let me start from the beginning.

31th Dec, dear and me already plan go Genting celebrate because his whole family ( i mean WHOLE family) also go and stay overnight there. Ok, morning go out with dear do his thing lo. Start headache on the afternoon so think is not enough sleep. Evening start getting worse,start dizzy. Because dear ask his friend and my brother go together so i say no problem just let me rest a bit more. Fever started. Genting Freezing cold because raining earlier. Before firework start i already feel wan faint.Some more is at outdoor impossible for me to stay ther with those cold wind blow. At the end, i end up sitting at Coffee Bean watching whole KL firework and not Genting. My condition getting worse so i have no choice but to stay a night there with his parents. The whole night i keep wake up vomit until blood also cum out.

The next morning, no energy to walk at all. Good is no more fever but have to start force myself to eat. For the next few days, i stil suffer cirit-birit and stomachache due to over vomit. A new year, i already have my Big sick. How GOOD it is!!

Christmas Countdown 2008

Seem to be so free now then i update my 2008 Christmas and New Year Countdown. 2008 Christmas is the 1st Chirstmas for dear & me so i only plan to celebrate it with simple way. Then, he come pop up his idea of going Sunway Lagoon on morning then go Bukit Bintang at night. I so faint when he say that. Who ever connect Chirstmas with water theme park!! I strongly against his plan & we argue the whole night for that. What happen at the end?? I win but not because i say so, is his work delay made him had to cancle the water park.

At the end, we go Sunway Pyramid enjoy a lovely dinner at Pasta de Gohan then head to Bukit Bintang. So many people there, crowded in front Pavillion. We have a walk around Bintang Walk, listen to carol in the Star Hill then sat at an open air bistro in front Star Hill waiting for countdown. I order a glass of cocktail named Tokyo Tea ( mix of Rum, Whisky, Volka & Gin with lime juice) Taste emm......................... However, this is how i imagine n plan of spending a simple Chirstmas and it go just as i imagine,hehe.












On Christmas that day, he successfully go to his Sunway Lagoon. ~FULL of people =.=ll

Back Again

Stop for so long my blog,freeze it for some reason and now i'm back. Although a bit different but still try my best to move on track again. Many thing happen and past away, new year hope to be more true to myself and enjoy every second of it.