Pink Panther 2

Watch this movie the day after Valentine. Is been a while didn't watch any movie in cinema so quite exciting. ( Before movie time,still argue about some little thing) Is not a bad movie, give you a big laugh. This inspector really make me stay in good mood for few days. But i don't aspect to watch the 3rd episode if have. ^^

看开

两天的冷静换来平静。心情明显转变很多。可能不见面让我有更多空间深思。
问题还在但更重要的是他的事业。就让这事放回心中，适当时机再谈吧！无为的争吵，我累他也累。
大家就各自忙到惨吧！目前最想独自一人关在房里看戏听歌，任何电话都不听。

冷静

隔了一天，是冷静了点但问题并没有解决

你完全没有意识到问题的存在

我也不知要从何说起这一切

过渡期吗？真的像妳说得那样吗？

很怀念那段电话聊天，躺在床上靠在你身边倾诉的时间

我恨你，很恨你是男人

感叹

刚看过朋友的部落格，眼泪不停在眼眶打滚。不是伤心或感动而是感叹。

你要我一直保持微笑我看我很难做得到。让你失望，对不起。你也知道我对自己的事往往顾虑太多，这也变成身边人的困扰。

我会顾虑因为我紧张；我紧张因为我重视。有些事不是说放就放得下，说过去就过去。

想太多？看太重？我只知道我很辛苦。幸福显然跟我在做对。我很差吧！

笑容，我很怀念。

迷茫

很累，真的很累。几乎每件事情我们认真讨论的都会变得争吵收场。可以说我霸道，说我执着，不能接受就是不能接受。两人的生活方式要达成协调我明白不简单，两人都需让步。但你能不要这么粗线条好吗！！不是每样事情要说出来才明白吧！说得太明白根本就没意识了。你最近只让我觉得你在怕我，故意让我，失去了当初的关心和体贴。这让我心在痛。你只会问我在生气吗，有想过我为何会动气吗？你如果认为我是那种无理取闹，小气野蛮的人那我很失望。你问我为什么最近都不说话，只因为你让我有种很抗拒的感觉。不是我没话说而是话到嘴边你的气息把我要说的话全吞回肚里。我能理解你需全心投入在新公司里又想维护我们的感情但你在无形中冷落了我的心，只做了表面的维护。我不要求你能多陪我吃饭逛街，我只要你睡前的少许时间来聊聊不难吧！我恐惧，恐慌，自己再次把心封闭起来。我越来越想把自己封闭。这段感情我最重视也让我偏体鳞伤。你看不看到我不知道，可能你永远都看不到，我只知道我的心在不断求救。

Back to my blog since stopped last month but with a heavy feeling. Many things happen, i only can describe it as torturing. Chap Goh Meh pass means new year is finish while Valentines comes. Time as always, very harsh on us. Sometimes i can't even believe i'm 23 now. If really want me to say the best thing ever happen until today, i'll say the friendship i have with you all.

No matter how many times i been hurt, heart broken or isolated myself, you all still stand behind me when ever i turn my head over. Family is forever. I believe true friend also is forever. When we get older, the things we need to worry get more and more. People say simple is the best but there are always not simple at the end.

Sad things happen to make us appreciate happy things. Mean happy is more precious but why we tend to hold so tide on things that made us sad? Maybe is just me that too stubborn on every particular thing giving myself a hard time. I care too much, i ask too much, i think too much, i even worried too much. Is it because this i being annoying? I really hate myself for this. Once a friend told me, God give you something sweet, it will also give you something even on the opposite. So, bare with it. Even i lost everything, i will still can see you all on my side.

真实

真实
张惠妹

你说的话 在我心中生了根
爱得很深 所以心很疼
记忆 在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问 对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉 另外一个人
我等 等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候 比较真

太多疑问 知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开 也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

太多疑问 知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开 也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

Yesterday listen to this song on radio, so back office fast fast download. I can deeply feel the lyric, its meaning mean so strong. Is so true.....

Yeah ---> Totally No

Really can't feel the Chinese New Year in the air. Just want go back home feel warm and enjoy mummy cooking. Last day at PJ, tomorrow morning back Butterworth. Everything just rush rush rush. Part of the reasons for no festival mood maybe due to dear problem. Although it seem to partially solve but....... I'm being paranoid. A friend said before being paranoid can be a good thing. Yes i agree, however, is suffering also. I keep worried of things that not base on me. In the end, i'm the one who over stress. Glad my roommate give me some useful advices, point out the thing i couldn't see or can say miss out. Really, don't aspect me to be perfect, not even half way close.

Delay for over 2 weeks, i finally get my hair cut last night. Maybe some of you will say not much different but i do have cut my front short oo!My stylist say if i wan to change my hairstyle have to let my hair longer oni can. So no choice, wait until my hair longer i will cut my fromt hair even shorter. I wan fresh fresh look.

Cut or Don't Cut

Tonight going to pasar malam buy Chinese New Year stuff for the last time then continue by cutting my hair. Yesterday go Vincci buy a sandle for rm20, i quite like it. Go Sasa buy Canmake eyeliner rm36, sob sob. Though wan go La Senza but broke le, haiz. Pity me.

5 more days can go home already, still thinking wan change hair style or not. Boring with my hair already, thinking want to cut my front hair short. But scare not suitable. I don't want that style look like doll, my housemate suggest me to cut no even one. I ask my stylist see what his suggestion. Don't want to look same all the time.

Feel Warm From The Bottom of My Heart

Dear say "i wan to talk to you about us tonight" yesterday. This give me a creepy when heard this few word. It doesn't seem to be very good. Some more such F**K thing happen yesterday, i got more worried. So i ask him at night before i go to sleep what he want to talk about. My heart beep very fast waiting for his answer.

The moment he talk, i try to calm myself. He say " I'm sorry, lately keep making you mad and sad, hurt you with my words. I won't do it again." I know he try his best to grow up, decrease his selfish attitude and those strong well of controlling. I know he just try to match my steps. I glad he had grown since the beginning. The last sentence he said made me very warm. " i can lose all my money, i can lose my business but i cannot effort to lose you". Even if it is a lie, at least i know i'm value to someone for this very moment. Woman are stupid huh!? Maybe is but clever never seem to bring me anything. So i rather be a invisible woman from behind.

My aim now beside finding a better job after graduate, i try my best to save enough money to buy a house together with him in 2 more year. He already plan for so many, at least this is what i can do since i do best in saving money $$$. Hehehe......